friends

I have seasons in my life when I re-evaluate. I'm sure I'm not the only one who does this. I often think about my friendships during those seasons. I am not one to be very outgoing, in that I don't often pursue friendships but wait for them to happen to me. I often feel like I don't have enough friends or that I don't have that one close friend to run to. I have a great husband, I worship a great God and I feel like that should be enough but there is still that hole that is unfilled that only a girl friend can fill for you. Someone that will sympathise and empathise with you when you are overwhelmed with life. Not listen to you complain, I don't have anything to complain about, but just relate to you in the way that only another mom/wife/woman can.

So in this season of re-evaluation I have set out to sove this problem. I am going to find that confidant, that soul mate of friends. I have had 3 others but space and station of life have dragged us apart and I miss it and I didn't have to search them out....it just happened. So how does one go about making that happen? Pray....check. Talk to more people than usual....check. Smile.....check. Get involved with something new...check. What is next? I tell my kids "how" to do it all the time and I make it sound so natural and easy. But talk is cheap, it isn't that easy to just throw yourself out there. But there it is, my challenge to myself for this season of re-evaluation.........

Life on the Treadmill

Many see the treadmill as a horrible form of torture. I on the other hand see it as a way to escape the stresses of life and be in my own mind for an undetermined amount of time, in a literal form anyway. I do spend lots of time on my treadmill, it's one of my favorite things in my house. It could be because I have two fans that blow on me, a tv 2 feet away with a cable hook up and a stereo so I can hear it over the belt. Or on the other hand, it could just be a reminder of life. Sounds funny I know because most would say that you don't get anywhere on a treadmill, but I beg to differ. On a treadmill you do the same thing over and over and let's face it over again, and while you don't actually move from your spot you do gain something from it. And I would say that gain is getting somewhere. But my life is much alike the treadmill. Most of us do the same actions day after day with little deviation. I start my day with a cup of coffee. Most days I can't tell you what day of the week it is without looking at my watch, my laundry pile almost always looks the same even though I do laundry almost every day, the kitchen sink fills and emptys multiple times a day, I use my broom to sweep the same 20 square feet 3 times a day and nothing is really all that new in my routine. But even though it might sound the same it is always different because every day I grow in understanding and knowledge. Every day my family gets one day older. Through prayer and obedience I get closer to God. I smile the same smile every morning and somehow it gets me a little closer to my friends. So life is like a treadmill....We do the same thing over and over and let's face it over again but it somehow is different and we really do gain something.